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So I made some amazingly delicious zucchini bread "muffins". I could not find my loaf pans for the life of me, so I had to use the cupcake pans. It worked out surprisingly well, but sometimes there is just something really satisfying about having a SLICE of something...

Oh well, I'm over it.

I also cut up the two cases of strawberries I bought at the grocery store the other day. I sliced them up so that they wouldn't chill in their little plastic containers and get moldy. I really hate it when that happens. Strawberries are the worst for that, they go on special like 2 days before they rot. (going down cristins route of plain yogurt with strawberries, or well, fresh fruit in general and sliced almonds... so good!)

Anyway, the point was that my fingers smell like strawberries no matter how many times I wash them, and it is delicious.

I've been using the words "totally" and "delicious" a lot lately.

I'm really sick of being in school, you guys. Time to graduate already. Seriously.

One day at a time, right? I think the only reason I feel like I'm in slow motion compared to everyone else is because most of my close friends have graduated and have either FOUND a "real" job, or are on the brink of finding one. Sometimes we try and figure out why things are happening the way they are but I don't think we're ever far enough removed from a situation when we're still in the midst of things to really understand it, if there even is a reason. I'm not one of those people who believe that every single thing happens for some cosmic reason, but I do think some things are particularly significant and open doors that seem like they were put there by some divine influence.

Hindsight makes things so clear but the present can be so frustrating. I have a lot of drama to deal with in the near future here where financial aid goes. I can only assume that things will work out in the end because they have to.
They really just have to.

I want so badly to move forward but I feel like there is so much holding me back. I am deliriously happy one moment and overwhelmed with stress the next. One extreme balances the other out, but on the in-between I am especially aware of every minute influence drawing me one way or the other. It's a whirlwind here, a hurricane and I am out there in the throes without a life jacket, clinging to a piece of wood. The ridiculous part is I stepped out there knowing exactly what I was getting myself into, so how can I shake my fist at anyone but myself? I am mostly referring to my mess with school, at least where the stressful part is concerned.

I don't view the choices i've made in life as unwise, but I know there are people who would consider some of them irresponsible (like the impromptu trip to NYC, my family was superpissed considering they shelled out for tuition and then realized i was going away (aka, i could have paid some of it) , but i'd planned to go before they insisted on paying, so it really wasn't me taking advantage of them), or my thoughts naive. I don't know. Maybe I am a little bit naive, but I like to think of myself as more of a free spirit than an ignorant mind. The decision making part of me is attached to my heart.

 I guess the rational part of me is attached to my fingers.

Makes sense. I make a lot more sense in written words than I do spoken ones.

I need to find my zen, yo. Oh, and probably a new job.

my ride. i'm still tryin' to figure out whether i totally dig it or not. (it matches my BB!)  let me put it this way... it's a car, you know? but i feel like i'm driving an SUV. futhermore, i cannot open the trunk. i just cannot figure it out. is it considered a hatch back? ok, whatever you wanna call it, i can't open it. i was sitting in the grocery store parking lot this evening looking through the user manual that i found in the glove compartment.

i like it a lot better than my sunfire though, for sure. but come to think of it, i'd probably rather be driving my old buick than the sunfire when you really iron out the details. yeah, anyway.

i'm really restless because i want to zumba REALLY BADLY and I can't because i have all this crap to accomplish tonight. i think exercise is the most important thing on my to-do list, seriously. i mean, judging by the looks of things you might not really think so, but when i'm into it and really want to work out I get so cranky when I can't. it affects every aspect of my mood and it makes me feel bad about myself.

i just have to push through this midterm tomorrow and then I can run to nicks, feed the animals, run back home and work out.

and then go to WORK. ugh. that place is stressing me out really badly lately. i'm not even entirely sure why. maybe stress is the wrong word... it's more frustrating than anything. plus one of my favorite managers last day is on the 25th. we're all going out after work (well, those of us working until 10 will be meeting them out) for a final goodbye. he always tries to cheer me up when i'm annoyed or frustrated at work, so the miserable meter will go up a notch with one less person there that i like.

i mean, i like everyone i work with, but some of them are more relatable, you know?

i need one of those foot massager things with the rolly balls on it that you run your feet over. are you following me? i know, i'm rambling because i am avoiding my notebook and highlighter.

blah.

ALSO, chase charged me 65 dollars and it pissed me off so bad that when i found out in the middle of studying, after shooting them off a WTF e-mail, i fell asleep. it was either fall asleep and forget about it or cry out of frustration.  i'm trying not to think about it until at least tomorrow after my midterm, because it'll wipe away any inkling of productivity left in me. 65 dollars is kind of a really big deal right now.

universe, i shake my fist at you for that. what were you thinking? i expect us to resolve this tomorrow. hopefully, for the better.

i guess i'm done for now.